Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like, to be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
why i'm post this lyrics? cause this lyrics reflect my life. and im sooooooooooooo bored and nothing to do and im not have idea for post something about my story. umm but this is some story of my life too......so? oke just enjoy this.
xx-zahra
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
THIS-IS-MY-LIFE.
You know that feeling?
When you're just waiting.
Waiting to get home, into your room.
Close the door, fall into bed.
and just let everything out that you kept in all day.
That feeling of both relief and desperation.
Nothing is wrong.
But nothing is right either.
And you're tired.
Tired of everything, tired of nothing.
And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay.
But no one's going to be there.
And you know you have to be strong.
for your self, because no one can fix you.
But you're tired of waiting.
Tired of having to be the one to fix your self and everyone else.
Tired of being strong.
And for once, you just want it to be easy.
To be simple. To be helped. To be saved.
But you know you won't be.
But you're still hoping.
And you're still wishing.
And you're still staying strong and fighting.
With tears in your eyes.
Your fighting.
xx -tumblr.
When you're just waiting.
Waiting to get home, into your room.
Close the door, fall into bed.
and just let everything out that you kept in all day.
That feeling of both relief and desperation.
Nothing is wrong.
But nothing is right either.
And you're tired.
Tired of everything, tired of nothing.
And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay.
But no one's going to be there.
And you know you have to be strong.
for your self, because no one can fix you.
But you're tired of waiting.
Tired of having to be the one to fix your self and everyone else.
Tired of being strong.
And for once, you just want it to be easy.
To be simple. To be helped. To be saved.
But you know you won't be.
But you're still hoping.
And you're still wishing.
And you're still staying strong and fighting.
With tears in your eyes.
Your fighting.
xx -tumblr.
KNZVM♥
knzvm♥diatas itu picture of knzvm, lg gamau bertele tele hari ini, gatau kenapa. tumben. cuma pengen share aja tentang mereka, bagi gue mereka udh bagian dari hidup gue, yea bisa dibilang kita satu jiwa, lebay. tapi serius. gue udh gaada malunya depan mereka, ortu mereka welcome bangeet. dan ortunya annisa avira itu gaul bengeet dan asik, seperti post post gue yg sebelumnya kita diajak ke tempat billiard dan bar sama bapaknya annisa avira. kita yaaa namanya anak muda cuma hidup satu kali coy, so jangan buang buang waktu. kita remaja tapi kita tau batesan, ketawa sampe nangis, sampe sakit perut. jalan ngabisin duit sampe minta lg minta lg sama ortu. tapi kita tetep sholat tetep ikuut aturan dong, makin seru deh tiap hari. makin solid. makin gabisa boong sama kalian soal apapun, sayang kaliaaaan♥
xx -zahra
I know.
yea i know.
She's prettier than me
She's happier than me
She's sweeter than me
She's thinner than me
She's better than me
She's sexier than me
She's nicer than me
She's everything i wasn't
She's prettier than me
She's happier than me
She's sweeter than me
She's thinner than me
She's better than me
She's sexier than me
She's nicer than me
She's everything i wasn't
what-do-you-mean?
haihaaaai! judulnya aja udh pertanyaan jadi isinya adalah bertanya tanya.....oke kok jadi jijik ya, bodo deh lanjut.
jadiiii, yea sebut aja namanya banu haha, si banu sms gue. pas tanggal 17 april, ada sms masuk ke hp gue, karena gue baru nyalain hape yg tadinya lowbatt jadi gue santai aja, paling axis. tiba tiba gue buka smsnya daaan "zah gue nanya blh?" duh kok jd degdegan......-_- akhirnya gue jawab "boleh, kenapa? maaf baru bales" akhirnya dia nanya nanya soal smp, yasud gue jawab seadanya yg dia tanya gue seneng tp gue biasa aja......gue takut suka lagi. sayang lg kaya dulu.
Akhirnya karena gue capek abis gowes gue ketiduran, gue pikir yaudah dia jg gabakal bls kali smsnya, dan tau taunya gue tidur 1 setengah jam dan.....pas bangun ada 3 sms dari banu hemmm dan perasaan itu kembali muncul *jengjeng* gue sayang lagi sama lo, lo ga berubah, gue jadi berharap kejauhan, perasaan gue msh persis kaya dulu ga berkurang sedikitpun. sampe jam 11 malem gue smsan, dia nyuruh gue tidur karena bsknya gue sekolah, okelah gue tidur dengan bahagia;p
Dua hari kemudian banu kayaknya forward sms itu ke semua org jam 04.55 pagi "ada yg masih melek?" dan gue jawab "gue bukannya masih melek, tapi baru melek" dan akhirnya smsan sampe gue disekolah trs dia nyuruh gue belajar dulu okelah, dan gue pikir dia gabakal sms lg yasud walaupun dalam hati gue berharap dia sms, dan pas istirahat pertama sekolah itu gue diputusin cumy, ya you knowlah gue langsung spam di twitter trs banu sms "lo putus sama cowok lo?" dan.........hem ini ya yang dinamain takdir? ngarep ini takdir iye kayaknya. gue tau di islam tuh ga ada kebetulan, sekecil apapun kejadian itu udh ada jalannya, sampe semut sekecil itu udh punya rezeki jalannya udh diatur. oke stop khotbah.
Dan gue smsan sampe jam 3 sorean trs gue pgn tidur siang gaboleh dan akhirnya dia cerita tentang ceweknya, ternyata dia sms gue karena lg marahan sm ceweknya, ya gue bantuin, gue rela kok jd pelariannya. time can prove who the one.
Dan karena emg gue kebiasan tidur siang gabisa dipaksain akhirnya gue ketiduran juga-_- dan gue baru bales smsnya pas bangun, yaiyalah masa bls pas ngigo-___- oke lawak galucu. lanjuuut. dan sampe sekarang dia ga sms gue lagi, mungkin udh baikan sama ceweknya. okelaah gue gamau berharap terlalu banyak:) i miss us:')
xx -zahra
jadiiii, yea sebut aja namanya banu haha, si banu sms gue. pas tanggal 17 april, ada sms masuk ke hp gue, karena gue baru nyalain hape yg tadinya lowbatt jadi gue santai aja, paling axis. tiba tiba gue buka smsnya daaan "zah gue nanya blh?" duh kok jd degdegan......-_- akhirnya gue jawab "boleh, kenapa? maaf baru bales" akhirnya dia nanya nanya soal smp, yasud gue jawab seadanya yg dia tanya gue seneng tp gue biasa aja......gue takut suka lagi. sayang lg kaya dulu.
Akhirnya karena gue capek abis gowes gue ketiduran, gue pikir yaudah dia jg gabakal bls kali smsnya, dan tau taunya gue tidur 1 setengah jam dan.....pas bangun ada 3 sms dari banu hemmm dan perasaan itu kembali muncul *jengjeng* gue sayang lagi sama lo, lo ga berubah, gue jadi berharap kejauhan, perasaan gue msh persis kaya dulu ga berkurang sedikitpun. sampe jam 11 malem gue smsan, dia nyuruh gue tidur karena bsknya gue sekolah, okelah gue tidur dengan bahagia;p
Dua hari kemudian banu kayaknya forward sms itu ke semua org jam 04.55 pagi "ada yg masih melek?" dan gue jawab "gue bukannya masih melek, tapi baru melek" dan akhirnya smsan sampe gue disekolah trs dia nyuruh gue belajar dulu okelah, dan gue pikir dia gabakal sms lg yasud walaupun dalam hati gue berharap dia sms, dan pas istirahat pertama sekolah itu gue diputusin cumy, ya you knowlah gue langsung spam di twitter trs banu sms "lo putus sama cowok lo?" dan.........hem ini ya yang dinamain takdir? ngarep ini takdir iye kayaknya. gue tau di islam tuh ga ada kebetulan, sekecil apapun kejadian itu udh ada jalannya, sampe semut sekecil itu udh punya rezeki jalannya udh diatur. oke stop khotbah.
Dan gue smsan sampe jam 3 sorean trs gue pgn tidur siang gaboleh dan akhirnya dia cerita tentang ceweknya, ternyata dia sms gue karena lg marahan sm ceweknya, ya gue bantuin, gue rela kok jd pelariannya. time can prove who the one.
Dan karena emg gue kebiasan tidur siang gabisa dipaksain akhirnya gue ketiduran juga-_- dan gue baru bales smsnya pas bangun, yaiyalah masa bls pas ngigo-___- oke lawak galucu. lanjuuut. dan sampe sekarang dia ga sms gue lagi, mungkin udh baikan sama ceweknya. okelaah gue gamau berharap terlalu banyak:) i miss us:')
xx -zahra
putus.
hai blog! gatau mau cerita apa.....berita terbaru aja yah. siap mendengarkan....1....2....3 oke alay apaansi zah stop.
jadi aku putus sama cumy, diputusin tepatnya uyeee seneng bukan karena gue ga sayang, tapi gue jadi ga perlu ngira ngira dia sayang gue apa engga, gaperlu gondok sama orang, marah marah mulu. gaperlu ndigosipin mulu sama kakak kelas 'eh cumykan lenjeh punya gebetan, eh itukan deket sm cumy manggilnya udh cantik cantik pula" lalala yaudah jd lebih lega single. FREEDOMMMM \m/ alesan dia sih katanya mau fokus un....yasudah.
Doain single terus ya mending mengagumi yg pantes dikagumi ajah:p enakan single punya gebetan banyak tp gamau punya pacar kecuali ada satu org itu yg nembak baru diterima hehehehe udh dulu ya daaaah.
xx -zahra
jadi aku putus sama cumy, diputusin tepatnya uyeee seneng bukan karena gue ga sayang, tapi gue jadi ga perlu ngira ngira dia sayang gue apa engga, gaperlu gondok sama orang, marah marah mulu. gaperlu ndigosipin mulu sama kakak kelas 'eh cumykan lenjeh punya gebetan, eh itukan deket sm cumy manggilnya udh cantik cantik pula" lalala yaudah jd lebih lega single. FREEDOMMMM \m/ alesan dia sih katanya mau fokus un....yasudah.
Doain single terus ya mending mengagumi yg pantes dikagumi ajah:p enakan single punya gebetan banyak tp gamau punya pacar kecuali ada satu org itu yg nembak baru diterima hehehehe udh dulu ya daaaah.
xx -zahra
Friday, April 1, 2011
April Mop!!!
April mop tahun ini beda dari tahun tahun sebelumnya, biasanya juga kaya hari hari sebelumnya haha. dari mulai pagi avira udh sibuk ngerjain orang dan rata rata ga berhasil wakakakak ngakak bgt.
Gue udh kepikiran sih mau boongin orang, tapi mau boongin siapa dan apa? jadi galau sendiri....oke gagitu wkwk. sampe akhirnya udh lewat maghrib gue biasa aja sm april mop, gaada jg yg coba boongin gue, iyalah siapa yg mau boongin gue pasti ketauan wakakakak ga gitu deng. sampe akhirnya......
Oke jd tadi ceritanya cumy itu hpnya low trs dia akhirnya nyapa, awalnya masih biasa kok blg blg kangen eh tbtb berubah jd ganas dan menuduh gue kalo gue selingkuh.......ada apa ini???
awalnya emg gue ngira april mop kan gt eh lama lama makin meyakinkan dan mengatakan yg agak sedih 'menghancurkan idup gua' sejak kapan gue berarti di idup lu cum? sejak kapan??? wakakakak dan akhirnya cumy ngaku kalo dia tau ini semua dari ajeng, oke langsung teror ajeng... dan ajeng kembali menyalahkan gue, gue merasa terpojokan oleh dua org yg gue sayang tp jd aneh hari ini, jadi gue disangka selingkuh sama aji gara ggara pas reunian gue emg deket sama aji. gue ngungkit ngungkit yg dulu kalo ggue waktu kelas 1-3 pegangan tangan kalo mau pulang sklh sm aji....oke ini aib. trs ajeng malah blg 'gue bantuin lo? lo yg salah zah cowok lo lg ujian lo malah deket deket sm aji' OMEGE ini apa-__- wakakakak hingga akhirnya gue lenyap sementara dari peradaban karena kesel parah.
hingga akhirnya ajeng minta maaf seperti ini:
BAHAGIAAAAAA buahahaha lebay sih tapi serius, ga kebayang kalo ini beneran. haha thank u rivaldi fawzian sama ajeng yyg udh bikin april mop ku beda trs dikerjainnn({}) ;D ;*
xx -zahra
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